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Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us. -{Romans 5:3-5}

Giving thanks always for all things unto God and the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ; {Ephesians 5:20}

I was so smitten when I wrote this. I miss that feeling.
It’s the best feeling when you’re around someone and you can feel yourself falling for them. You find yourself staring at them, they catch you and ask “what?” simultaneously doing that little side smile that suggests they in fact know “what” but want to hear it from your mouth. You yourself don’t know what to say though because there was so much going through your mind a second ago when you snapped out of it you’re caught in a daze and all you can do is smile and say “nothing”.
This happens a lot because everything they do and everything they are fascinates you. The way they move, The laughs, little giggles and the way their eyes light up when they get excited.
They become all you think about which can sometimes kill the good feeling a bit. Especially when you don’t know exactly what it is that they’re thinking or if they ever think about you at all.
You hang in there though. You can’t bring yourself to be too forward but you can’t bring yourself to drop it and move on either. All you do is cross your fingers, keep doing what you’re doing and hope the perfect moment arises when you manage to form a sentence which hopefully expresses how you feel about them..

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Fall is for carving pumpkins, mimosas, jumping in leaves and scaring your friends..

Revelation 21:4
And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.

Forgiveness Wins

{Matthew 6:14}
"For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you:"

'Unforgiveness will ruin your day. If someone hurts you, pray quickly, “God, I forgive them in Jesus’ name.” If your emotions feel strained when you see that person, stand firm in your decision to forgive them.
Pray for them, asking God to show you how to bless them. Do whatever God leads you to do for them, and let God’s love work through you to heal the rift between you. If you do your part, God will bring your feelings in line with your decision, and you will enjoy your day and your life.'

life is like walking in the rain, you can hide and take cover or you can just get wet.. soo I'm literally & definitely gonna get wet as soon as it starts raining here❤

I'm sad & a bit hurt..

"Father, in the name of Jesus, I come before You, confessing my need for You, and crying out to you from the bottom of my heart. Lord, You've said that you are near to those whose hearts are breaking and that you give grace to the humble. I humble myself before you now...I cast down any pride or self-justification that I would hide behind, and I present myself to you as I truly am--weak and helpless and despairing of my very life. I know there is no other Rock but You, and I turn to You with all of my heart. Father, I receive your love as a river, washing over the dry wasteland of my emotions. I see that in Your river there is life, and that every place your river touches in me is revived. I cast all my cares, my sorrows, my disappointments into that river and I let the current of Your spirit carry them far away. I believe You, when You say that You think good thoughts about me, and that Your plans are to give me a future and a hope. I believe You when You say that You knew who I was even before my mother conceived me--and that You wanted me to be alive on the earth right now. Thank you for giving me life! Thank you for working all things in my life for good! Thank you that I can call on your Name and You will be near me. Thank you for bearing all my weaknesses and diseases on the cross, and healing me, spirit, soul and body."

C.J. 10.17.12

happy birthday punk.
My darling boy,
After a couple very quick years of knowing you, our friendship has had many different kinds of ups and downs. You are my confidant, my psychologist, my motivator & You are sarcastic and blunt and critical. But yet I find it lovely that you are a challenge. I find it beautiful that I’m a person that can make you speak your mind and deal with the things you say. At the same time, we are both very similar in personalities as well as very different... You are so wrong yet so right for me. And after all this time, I think, I could have easily given up on our friendship. But I persisted ;) It’s true. You make me laugh and tell me the way I think is so in depth for most people to understand. There is nothing better than the feeling of someone else knowing you better than you know yourself.
You have helped me become aware of my life. I am so much happier because of you. You light up my life and I truly love being apart of your world.
Our relationship is so different, its authentic, unique and so complicated and so damn confusing to me that it remains interesting at all times, like a new book, every time we talk, its exciting yet suspenseful, awaiting the powerful last sentence.. I'm Thankful for having a true, real friend in You...

love you.
Happy Birthday.
Always,
J ❤

A lot of problems in the world would disappear if we talk to each other instead of about each other..

“We don’t read and write poetry because it’s cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race, and the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering— these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life, but poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for. To quote from Whitman, “O me! O life! of the questions of these recurring, of the endless trains of the faithless, of cities fill’d with the foolish. What good amid these, O me, O life? Answer: that you are here—that life exists, and identity, that the powerful play goes on and *you* may contribute a verse.” That the powerful play goes on and *you* may contribute a verse… What will your verse be?”
-John Keating, Dead Poets Society (1989)❤

"Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven. Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you."
{Luke 6:37, 38}

Surprise 24th Birthday Party❤

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Its been hard ever since my little incident early this week, every little heart beat scares me... I look back on my life, and every hard thing i’ve been through has taught me something i wouldn’t have otherwise learned.
our struggles stretch us, shape us for the better. and no it’s not always fair. sometimes there’s something new to see through it. sometimes we just need healing. sometimes it’s about character over comfort, and changing us rather than our circumstances.
..So be patient. be tough. you’ll make it through for a reason - to help someone who hasn’t yet. and they’ll look at you and say, wow, that person made it through the same thing i’m feeling, now? well then i can, too!

Sooo what happened to me the other night, those scary symptoms that I've come to realize, are going to be a normal thing in my Multiple Sclerosis life, scared out of my mind, but I guess now prepared also, knowing what to expect... the uncontrollable shaking that I got is called 'Tremors' & it can happen to me at any given time.. and also the sharp pain right in the middle of my chest that travels around to my neck, head and even back, and makes it hard to breathe, actually I couldn't really breath for awhile which kept coming and going in waves, which can sometimes mimic a heart attack, well point is, this horrible symptom Is called 'MsHug', nice name right? Well as all my fellow ms'ers say:: there's nothing nice about that hug to be called a hug... The only way I can describe the sensation is to imagine wearing a corset all night long while being strangled by a boa constrictor :/ yeah nothing nice about that one, huh?
But even after all my rambling about what life brings, its still so refreshing to know that we can rest in the strength and comfort that God will provide when facing troubles of many kinds..

Isaiah 40:28-31 Have you not known? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength. Even youths shall faint and be weary,and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.

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Ahhhh What a Beautiful day it has been, the weather is Perfect!! Thank You Lord!! ..still hoping it rains today, Please Just a Little bit :)
THIS IS THE DAY THAT THE LORD HAS MADE; LET US REJOICE AND BE GLAD IN IT. {Psalm 118:24}

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I guess when you have experienced and have been exposed to many different things in your life, you start to develop a real sense of reality. You understand the pain it’s like to lose someone and accept that they will no longer be present in your life. You can’t go and visit them, you can't pick up the phone and chat. You can’t hug them or kiss them. They simply have vanished into thin air. When you have experienced your parents being divorced, you don’t have one home. You have two of everything. They both make different rules and then ultimately fall in love with other people. When you truly believe that your family will never fall apart, it does. And when you think everything is good, it isn’t. And when you love someone, they don’t love you back. And when you want to escape someone, they will always be there..

why must I always eat when I'm down.. well to end the night on a better note:: God’s not after perfect.. He’s after our hearts..

I will bless the Lord at all times; his praise shall continually be in my mouth. {Psalm 34:1}

..can't believe I'm still up, in pain, but of course I choose to clean till that feeling subsides(Which is kinda lame, since doing anything with my hands, just makes the pain worse..)... Ahh & of course my mind wanders all over the place.. It’s sad how the people you were once so close with can become just another stranger you don’t know..

“Books fall open, you fall in. When you climb out again, you’re a bit larger than you used to be” -Gregory Maguire

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Don’t worry about how everything will be possible. I will give you just what you need every single day, if you remember to trust me. I have your best life planned. You don’t have to worry about a thing. Just love me. Love who I made you to be. Love everyone else. Love the people who are hardest to love. Don’t draw any lines. Lines create boundaries. And my love has no bounds. -God