An average of 5000 girls and boys commit suicide every year due to online harassment/bullying.
One thing I’ve learned in life… we don’t have to say or share every negative thing we’re thinking. If it won’t leave someone better or happier, don’t say it! Words echo, and can deeply hurt or damage someone. But a few kind words can go a long way, and radically make a difference in their day. You never know. There are enough people in this world to bring us down… choose to be someone who lifts other people up. And take care of your own heart, because how you handle yours will be how you handle other people’s. This world needs people who’ve got heart… cause without it… well… have a look around..

How do you look at the person you love and tell yourself it's time to walk away--- if we were meant to be together, we would be together..

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Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will exalt you. {James 4:10}

Yay Last Day Of Steroids is over, which means my mood is over, which means, yay one less med to take❤ ..I had a good afternoon, and not so long ago i had the sweetest surprise, a little 4 month old French bulldog named Milau (pronounced Milo, but spelled in french) came to say 'bonjour Mademoiselle' to me & kiss and play && take lots of pics w/me!! Have A Good Night Y'all, that little bundle of joy definitely lifted my spirits ❤
But I will sing of your strength; I will sing aloud of your steadfast love in the morning. For you have been to me a fortress and a refuge in the day of my distress. {Psalm 59:16}

Ugh Fatigue makes me miss alot... I cannot explain the feeling other than imagine you ran for 10 miles and you are expected to do all of your everyday tasks feeling exhausted. You know when you have had the flu and your head is heavy and dizzy? Well imagine having to function feeling that way all day. Imagine having to wash your dishes or bathe with hands that feeling like they’ve been burned. Try shaving with numbness. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve cut my right leg or under my armpit on the right side where the feeling isn’t completely there. You know when your arm or leg falls asleep and you have the numbness and tingling? Imagine that always being there and you’re expected to do your everyday things..

I'll Have Me One Of These Please & Thank You..

Ahhhh I've been on steroids for the past week & 6 days, one more day to go and I'm done! Thank God! Looking forward to it, idk if the medicine is helping or making me worse, my hands & arms are still numb due to my last flare up BUT the rest of me isn't anymore, well at least not all the time, it come & goes... which is Good, its way better than all the time, i can feel the floor again when i walk :) But I'm really looking forward to not having any crazy cravings anymore or any of the other side affects from the steroids❤

The only two places where I feel absolutely safe are either in my bed with fresh, white fluffy pillows surrounding my head & preferably w/a book or in water. Like on the bottom of a swimming pool. Alone. Weightless. Peaceful. Nobody talking. Nobody pretending. Just being. Those are the only two places. Everywhere else I get smacked in the face with arrogance, ignorance, shallowness. They knock me down and leave me bleeding on the floor.

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I will never regret you or say that I wish I’d never met you, because once upon a time you were exactly what I needed.

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Why can’t I just be happy? This sensation of drowning is finally taking its toll. The people that used to need me now monitor my mental health. Am I a danger to them while I’m a danger to myself? I don’t know how to ask for help. This is hell. This repetition has become exhausting and I lied when I said I was better before. I don’t want to cause anymore grief than I’ve already bestowed. This is self loathing at its finest. There’s a monster living inside my head and these sentences could never get it out. It’s only a matter of time now. This is comatose. This is agony. I became everything I never wanted to be. I’ve got old letters, torn pieces of paper and they’re scattered about as reminders. I used to be alive and then something inside me suddenly broke and apart of me died. Now I’m fighting deep sadness alone, and it’s better this way, I suppose. I never intended for this emotional turmoil, my friends, and it hurts me to my bones. I want to go. I can’t put anymore people through my sadness and I’m sorry that this dragged out in the first place. I hate myself and I don’t deserve anything. Life has been rough on me, but being scarred isn’t an excuse to drag other people down with you.
I’m sorry.

“I choose to write because it’s perfect for me. It’s an escape, a place I can go to hide. It’s a friend, when I feel out casted from everyone else. It’s a journal, when the only story I can tell is my own. It’s a book, when I need to be somewhere else. It’s control, when I feel so out of control. It’s healing, when everything seems pretty messed up.
And it’s fun, when life is just flat-out boring.” -Alysha Speer

Soli Deo Gloria!!!

Learning•Learning•Learning..

After going to the ER yesterday and being there Waiting and hoping & Praying that they have the perfect thing to help me to stop these annoying & painful symptoms.. ended disappointed once again with them telling me that I gotta learn to get used to it because it's a part of my MS & these symptoms come and go & drugs of course :/ ... I was reminded again to keep my trust in God and be at peace knowing that He has everything in His hands and my hope and joy and life and my Health is in His perfect and just power. He alone is my Rock & my Refuge.

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{Overwhelmed by Psalm 118} One of my favorite Psalms is Psalm 118- verse 24 {This is the day that the Lord has made;let us rejoice and be glad in it} is one of my all time favorite verses. This Psalm is so rich with truth about who God is-- His {goodness,} His {faithfulness}, His {protection} and {strength} and {lovingkindness}. Wow what a God we serve! God is SO GOOD to ALL of those who love Him! Even when we go through times of confusion or uncertainty or stress, God always provides for and protects us! I am so thankful for this day, this week, and for God's overwhelming (and undeserved) blessings!

The Lord's Good ❤4/26/11