10:40 pm.
All it takes is a second, a moment that has a hint of the past, and as it passes someone comes to mind. It’s the unfortunate residue of something you once loved, a bookmarked memory that you don’t realize is always there in the back of your mind. It’s the connection that was cut off, but you still feel it and it still moves you.

"We all have time machines. Some take us back, they’re called memories. Others take us forward, they’re called dreams."

“There are certain people who come into your life, and leave a mark. Their place in your heart is tender; a bruise of longing, a pulse of unfinished business. Just hearing their names pushes and pulls at you in a hundred ways, and when you try to define those hundred ways, describe them even to yourself, words are useless.”
— Sara Zarr

Venting..

It’s interesting to how you can think back to when you were little and you always imagined being an older kid. Then as you moved to high school, there was always the year 12’s that were the highest in the school. Then you got there. While working Full Time & continued working right out of high school, towards a goal but got stuck working, to getting out of working to pursue my dreams, to finding out I'm sick & not just from a mean ol' cold but w/a chronic illness that resulted in me putting my dreams on hold, that's left me in a long moment of sidetracking.. Now it’s like, I wonder what God has planned for me next. Friends ask me about marriage, family & kids like its the only thing out there, like if I don't go towards that direction what else is out there for me to do! I mean, in 10 or 15 years time I could be married and have a family. Thats not that far away. I can’t imagine myself being married though. I don’t know why. I don't think I want to be married, i don't think that whole commitment thing is for me. You grow up thinking that’s what you have always wanted. But maybe things change. Maybe people change..
All that's on my mind at the moment is fighting & surviving this crappy situation I'm in and Making Sure that I Glorify The Lord through it all. & Being Thankful! I don't want to think about 10-15 years from now, I want to think only of today, tomorrow is never promised to us..

❤❤❤

"I adore You,
I bless You,
I love You,
I praise You,
I thank You,
and I worship You!
Lord, I consecrate this day & everyday to You, and call upon the fullness of:
Your anointing,
Your grace,
Your guidance,
Your healing,
Your power,
Your presence,
Your protection,
Your provision,
Your revelation,
Your understanding,
and Your wisdom
to permeate everything that I do today."

•Perfect Mixture of A Chic Vintage Dove Grey Wedding•

Yesterday the 22nd, calendar wise, was the first day of autumn BUT today I can actually feel it starting & hopefully it just gets cooler from here on out, ahh the simple things of life are always the best..

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CutiePie..NOAH..

I had a nightmare last night, that I got a call from my doctor letting me know of an upcoming appt for another spinal tap(Lumbar Puncture), reason for it, they misplaced the cerebrospinal fluid they took out the first time :/ I'm sorry? Woke up crying, drenched in tears from that nightmare..
My spinal tap(Lumbar Puncture) was done a year ago, and probably is the scariest thing I've ever gone through, I was not about to do it again..

I miss: ❒ Friends ❒ Family ❒ Reading non-stop ❒ The good times ❒ My childhood ✔ All of the above..

life is so brief n precious, don't take anyone or anything for granted.

“I believe in God like I believe in the sun rise. Not because I can see it, but because I can see all that it touches.”
-C.S. Lewis

“Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering.”
—Paulo Coelho

Fall•Waiting for you...

“I don’t know what they are called, the spaces between seconds– but I think of you always in those intervals.”
—Salvador Plascencia

3rd Birthday :) 9/11