Venting..

It’s interesting to how you can think back to when you were little and you always imagined being an older kid. Then as you moved to high school, there was always the year 12’s that were the highest in the school. Then you got there. While working Full Time & continued working right out of high school, towards a goal but got stuck working, to getting out of working to pursue my dreams, to finding out I'm sick & not just from a mean ol' cold but w/a chronic illness that resulted in me putting my dreams on hold, that's left me in a long moment of sidetracking.. Now it’s like, I wonder what God has planned for me next. Friends ask me about marriage, family & kids like its the only thing out there, like if I don't go towards that direction what else is out there for me to do! I mean, in 10 or 15 years time I could be married and have a family. Thats not that far away. I can’t imagine myself being married though. I don’t know why. I don't think I want to be married, i don't think that whole commitment thing is for me. You grow up thinking that’s what you have always wanted. But maybe things change. Maybe people change..
All that's on my mind at the moment is fighting & surviving this crappy situation I'm in and Making Sure that I Glorify The Lord through it all. & Being Thankful! I don't want to think about 10-15 years from now, I want to think only of today, tomorrow is never promised to us..