Blah.
I didn’t rest much last night, as almost every night,the pains on my hands and legs seems to be getting worse, & my body has been numb/asleep since yesterday.. from my neck to my toes :( Soo i was just on that weird lay in bed for hours half awake kind of sleep. Time to start taking melatonin again to regulate my night time schedule. & continuing w/Colloidal Silver (NaturalMed) to see if that will help with my flare ups:::I really hate being exhausted during the day.

Ever fell asleep on your arm? Ever sat on your leg--bent under you bottom? Well most of us have & remember that pins & needles feeling you get as the blood is coming back into that area? Well imagine that happening ALL the time- non-stop. Annoying & Painful. We can have this anywhere on our bodies. From head to toe. I've gotten numbness on my face as well. For some even Paralysis can be an issue. It can come & go..

Trying not to let the darkness eat me up again..

Today, for the second time since December, I thought about death. I’m not really sure why, or what triggered this empty feeling,
but it’s there in the back of my mind.
And it harbored there previously for a long time... I don’t want to go back to that dark place.
I feel disconnected at the moment.
I can’t really explain what’s got me choking up, but the idea of taking a permanent leap seems satisfying & at the same time, too easy... Life's hard, as it should be, because the Goal is Grand!!!
I Pray about it daily:: for Patience, Strength & Understanding, to overcome this and be @ peace... Everything happens for a reason && I'm still figuring out what that reason is. I know God loves me, I trust that He will continue taking care of me and growing me in this.. My goal is set to the heavens, where I will Praise my God in a perfect, pain free state..

No Rain :( but cloudy... Good Enough ❤❤

Early Day @Santa Monica 4 a Shoot!!

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Every day I want to wake up and pray for the new day knowing that "This is the day that the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it" {Psalm 118:24}